Aku ada buat dakwah ke?

I just so touched when this morning I saw a video in fb, how an Australian man converted to Islam. He was converted by ust firdaus wong and masyaLLAH he is also a revert Muslim. I rasa malu dgn diri sendiri yg sejak lahir muslim, belajar dalam Bahasa arab, ajar mengaji (berbayar) ni pun masih solat subuh gajah. Pagi tu I had a deep thought thinking of what job I should apply after graduating (insyaAllah in nov 2018). Bila tgk video tu terus rasa nak join the organization-Multiracial Reverted Muslims - MRM, buat street dakwah. Kalau hidup kat dunia ni duk kisah pada diri sendiri je memang tak ke mana kita. I need to start thinking of how to make benefit from my life in this dunya for my living in the hereafter. I also feel a bit upset of my decision making utk taknak pergi usrah and hafazan class, making excuses and all. Take anything for granted. Astaghfirullah3x.

Secondly, I terbaca comment kt fb tentang betapa tingginya keperluan guru agama and Bahasa arab diperlukan di sabah Sarawak. I pernah tahu pasal tu, dan kebetulan mmg pernah ada student from arabicara dari sabah yg try jugak ajar anak dia Bahasa arab even she just knew nothing but a little about Bahasa arab. Sekolah kat sana mmg ada buku teks Bahasa arab, tp guru yang nak mengajar yang tak ada. And this commenter said, kalau dia selfish, mmg dia akan enroll master this sept but he can’t. He has a big responsibility of being a teacher and he did it! MasyaAllah, may Allah bless this brother from the scarification he made T.T

So kalau betul hidup di dunia utk akhirat, I need to join any organization, buat dakwah. I berhajat one day I can teach people mengaji without ambik upah. I need to have a high salary, buat donation, support ngo2, and mengajar secara sukarela.

And not to forget, embrace everything around me and not taking them for granted. Commit usrah to learn more about Islam, correcting myself, kutip nasihat and panjangkan lagi tali dakwah. Tali dakwah akan terus memanjang dan disambut oleh orang2 yg bersedia dengannya, tapi takkan kita just nak tgk saja, tak nak jadi orang yg menyambungnya???

Watch the video:

Apa tujuan sambung belajar??

Semalam ada liqa dgn murobbi baru. Alhamdulillah, bersyukur kerana tergerak jugak hati utk pergi usrah sbb walaupun semalam hanya sempat buat taaruf dgn usrahmate yg baru (and ada juga 3 org usrahmate yg lama), still byk sgt dpt input yg berguna.

Disebabkan ini ialah usrah for PG students, masing2 share academic background masing2. It was truly wide opening session bila kita dgr tajuk kajian masing2 dan interest field mereka. At first, I was really shy to share my research topic sebab tak rasa pun my thesis will contribute much to society. It was because, my usrahmate yg perkenalkan diri before me said her research paper was about takaful. Generally her paper akan kaji pasal system takaful di mana pada harini, hanya org berkemampuan shj yg mampu untuk bayar. Tapi sebenanya konsep takaful ialah dia saling membantu. Kalau org miskin tak mampu bayar takaful, jadi apakah cara yg membolehkan mereka menerima takaful itu? And my murobbi did ask her, after you siap kajian, kat peringkat mana hasil kajian you boleh diaplikasikan? And she said, she targeted corporate people. And her paper topic pun sgt menarik minat semua org sebab berkait rapat dgn maslahah org Islam.  

And lagi sorg ukhti pulak, dia masa degree ambil bahagian mass communication atau media com (lebih kurang macam tu). So sekarang dia dah kerja dgn NGO Palestine(PCOM: Palestinian Cultural Organization – Malaysia) yg berfungsi sebagai org tgh antara ngo2 malaysia sprt MyCare dan sewaktu dgnnya dgn Palestine. Dia ibarat embassy of palestin tapi NGO punya organization. Ukhti tu seorang shj malay yg kerja di situ. Dia byk uruskan perkara2 yg melibatkan orang besar@ kerajaan something like that. Dia cerita yang org2 palestin ni pandai2. Bila cakap pasal academic, mereka mmg target utk belajar shgg phD. Jadi ukhti ni sedikit sebanyak menjadi tekad utk further study sampai phd memandangkan semua collegue dia pun master and phd candidates. So, skrg this ukhti is in her first sem in master, and Alhamdulillah, dia dpt scholarship drp kerajaan turki utk buat master di sana. Dia katanya mmg sgt passionate utk membuat kajian sehinggakan masa degree dulu, doc dia pilih paper dia utk dipublishkan. So bila macam tu, dia lagi la berkobar-kobar utk sambung master. And lebih mengujakan lagi, dia akan buat research mengenai conflict Israel-palestin! Ini lagi wow! Sbb international issue punya level dia kaji.

So masa my turn utk taaruf session, I pun cerita laa pasal bidang I iaitu Bahasa arab dgn shy-shy cat nya.. sbb rasa inferior betul dgn org lain. To my surprised they actually sgt interested nak tahu pasal kajian i. and diorg rasa awesome gila I boleh further study in Arabic. From there, I rasa terharu la jugak sbb org lain sebenarnya pandang tinggi je bidang Bahasa arab ni dan tak seperti yg I rasa rasakan selama ni. So apa yg I rasakan sebelum ni? I cuma rasakan bidang ni sgt tak popular dan tak wow sgt pun berbanding bidang2 lain. So insyAllah lepas ni I akan cuba lebih mengahrgai nikmat ilmu yg Allah kasi ni sbb ramai yg ingin mendalami bhs arab tapi mereka tak mampu. Semoga, I boleh ajar ramai org mengenali dan memahami bhs arab yang akhirnya bertujuan utk lebih memahami isi kandungan al-quran itu sendiri, insyaAllah.

Untuk penutup I suka sgt dgn kata2 penutup dari murobbi i. dia kata semoga kita ni menjadi org yg ada barokah. Barokah pada ilmunya, waktunya, rezekinya, umurnya and everything. Cuba bayangkan kita ni menjadi org yg barokah, tak tergambar rasanya betapa byk kebaikan yg kita boleh salurkan hatta kita dah mati sekalipun, sepertimana ulama2 terdahulu, umur mereka tak panjang pun, tp kerana keberkatan pada umurnya, dirinya, dia mampu beri contribution hingga ke hari ini. Wallahuaklam.

kelas murajaah part 3

5 ways to memorize the quran

1.          listen to qurro’ like محمود خليل الحصاري، محمد صديق المنشاوي.

2.          keep repeating

3.          read in solah

4.          do not rush

5.          do tasmik to the mutqin person

من لم يكنْ رُحْلَةً لن يكونَ رُحَلَة

who do not seek(travel) for knowledge, 
people will not come to him for knowledge.

banyakkan pergi ke kelas2, syeikh2 luar drp uni. Sbb apa yg diberikan uni hanyalah رؤوس الأقلام (basic things)
Orang yg graduate drp kuliah AQ & AS belum tentu ada ijazah qiraah. Dia perlu keluar, mencari ilmu seperti ulama terdahulu. Mereka mengembara beribu-ribu batu hanya untuk mendapatkan satu hadis.
Ada kisah di mana seorang tabiin (maybe) dia pergi berjumpa seorang budak hanya untul mendapatkan makna satu kalimah drp ayat berikut:

إِنَّهُ ظَنَّ أَن لَّن يَحُورَ (الانشقاق:14)

lelaki itu ingin mengetahui maksud perkataan يحور, 

dia bertanya kepada budak itu; mana ayah kamu

budak itu menjawab: هو سوف يحور بعد العصر 

maksudnya : "dia akan pulang selepas asar"

and the guy suddenly realized that he already get what he wants to know. The end.

my futuristic idea

1. 29/12/2017 - I imagined there will be an auto car yg akan alih diri dia sendiri sbb dia block parking orang masa tuan dia tak ada. Kereta tu pandai bawak diri dan kembali semula ke tempat parking tuannya atau dia masuk ke dlm parking yg telah kosong tadi.
2. 15/5/2018- dah ada pengeluaran jem tp dalam bekas mcm pencuci muka- tak perlu gunakan sudu.

kelas murajaah part 2

Something valuable I learnt today, bila kita baca alquran dgn tartil, tenang-tenang tak gocoh-gocoh, the words suddenly came into mind. Asalnya I sangkut, but when I repeat the last verse with tartil (as the ustaz recites), the memory came into mind. I seriously rasa ada kemukjizatan yg besar sgt pada alquran. Bila kita baca dgn tajwid yg betul, kita akan rasa calm. Rasa calm yg semacam sangat. Besides that, we also have an ample of time to feel the meaning.

He also said, memorizing quran without any pay (tak mcm kelas2 uni) seems like it is something unvalueable. Because people like to appreciate more when something is expensive and hard to find. But remember, memorizing the quran has it own value. People will know you because of the quran. Like he said, when he was in sudan, somebody has paid his bus fare when he was about to pay. He also was invited to be the imam in masjid. People came to him to be his student. He also told us that he once has a bangaladeshi student. He read and memorized the quran starting from surah annas. He thanked him for making him able to read surah in prayer. MashaAllah. What a great ajr he has made.

kelas murajaah part 1

Today is the fourth day I went to kelas murajaah, and I feel so blessed.  Everytime after the murajaah, there would be some sharing from ustaz. His name is Yusuf. He is a Sudanese. Dark-skinned. Berumur mungkin 30-an. Mempunyai hafalan yg kuat. Boleh tasmik 3 orang sekaligus tanpa membuka mushaf sambil mengawal student lain yg berada dalam kelas. Sgt knowledgeable dlm agama, terutamanya tentang alquran and tajwid. He is very good at reciting poem in Arabic. He remembers every word of the bait. He is quite funny suka sebut “macam orang kampung” or “orang asli macam saya”. He likes to share stories about brothers and sisters he taught.  He likes to remind us to keep going with alquran. He likes to stress the point of getting closer to Allah is by reciting, remembering the quran. Reading quran is the best ibadah because we talk to Him during this ibadah.   The best thing I feel when I joined this class is I got back my FORCE in reading the quran and memorizing it. Without this force, I rarely doing my murajaah and honestly I dah lama tinggalkan murajaah. To make it worst, I juga makin jarang baca al quran. Astaghfirullah. And I can’t thank Allah SWT enough for giving me this opportunity. I promised to myself to benefit this opportunity and I asked Allah to give me thabat and istiqomah in this path until I die. Amiiinnnnn.

Disclaimer: Im not a hafizah ÿet but im trying to be one. Pray for me

proposal timeline

dawam sem 3 start bila ye?

1.          Seminggu sebelum mula dawam dah start jumpa doc Yasir, terus dpt tajuk

2.          Minggu pertama tgk2 dulu buku rs

3.          Doc beri masa 2 minggu utk siapkan proposal

4.          Siap proposal in two weeks Cuma lambat dlm 2-3 hari. Doc check, esoknya hantar balik dan terus pass

5.          13 okt Dpt Tarikh utk defend 3 minggu selepasnya

6.          3 nov- defend

7.          3 minggu kemudian baru siap correction sbb byk nak dibetulkan. Hantar kt doc 23 hb

8.          Seminggu kemudian doc baru nak baca. 1 dec

9.          13/12 jump doc Hanafi, settled terus dgn dia.

10.      Tggu hujung dec sbb nak tggu ustazah solehah balik, rupanya dia balik hujung januari

11.      27/12 hntr proposal kt dia through email

12.      29/12 dia reply
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sebelum cuti sem, i nekad siapkan bab 2. walaupun bab 2 cuma 9 pages je tp cukup membanggakan...sbb ada progression. itupun buat dlm masa 3 minggu.


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new sem started : 040218

utk bab 3, i took 7 weeks untuk siapkan. bab 3 is basically bab nazori. lama sgt ambik masa sbb kena baca-faham-olah-konklusi. i takut betul bab 3 ni, takut bila nak turn it in nanti. takut byk percentage plagiarism. dan tahap ni, pernah rasa down sbb tak tahu nak buat ayat sendiri. end up i guna balik cara yg Dr Baqir ajar. he taught us to copy je everything yg berkaitan, nak olah tu kemudian. bila dah kumpul bahan, baru fikir nak concludekan dia ke, tukar perkataan ke, buat taqdim taakhir ke. So, that was how i survived.

so I rasa ok je ambik masa lelama, walaupun act target nak buat dlm masa sebulan je. but then, bila jumpa doktor, doktor kata ambik masa lama sgt, sbb ni bab naqal je. yg penting bab tahlil kata dr. i baru mcm tersedar. rasa mcm kena tampor pon ade.. bila recall balik, yup. he was right. i terlalu manjakan diri, malam langsung tak buka dah laptop. nak belajar cuma kat lib. pastu pagi pun bangun lambat. kalau dtg awal pun mcm 830 tu kira plg awal. tapi samapi2 sana, buka fb dulu, shopping online dulu, pastu start nye pukul 10.
hmmmmmm

so i redho je la kena marah. Alhamdulillah dpt sv yg tegas dan jenis pushing.

for chapter 4, i targetted nak jumpa doktor every 2 weeks. lets see how it turn to be.

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Chapter 4, i start buat 2503018- the last week of march.

malam tadi dah start stay up samapi pukul 1 lwbih. Tak boleh nak bangga sgt sbb subuh terlajak. pastu lepas subuh tido balik. bangun kul 915.
2603- semangat buat kerja keluarkan feel2 dr rs. sorting and everything, tp takdir mengatasi segalanya.
i stop rehat, solat nap kejap and makan. balik dari makan dlm kul 3, laptop ni buat hal pulak. kerja pagi tadi tak save sbb yg pagi tu buat kt autorecovered pastu blm save. pastu mmg lesap la. Jasi kita move on je. takde guna meratap.

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harini 15/5/2018- bab 4 tahap 1 (classify ikut jenis)

ya allah lamanya ambik masa baca hadis! total hadis 1896. ada baki 285 lagi hadis. lusa dah 1 ramadahan. i target siapkan bahagian keluarkan dr buku rs ni sbelum puasa!

dalam tempoh ni byk drag masa:
1. kereta eksiden
2. bercuti ke cameron highland
3. prepare utk temuduga uia-dan failed
kesan (peristiwa1-3, 10 hari tak buka rs)
4. cuti pilihanraya ke-14. byk keluar dgn family dan duduk kt rumah seminggu


2 Julai- hantar full thesis ke dept
17 Julai - dah dpt paggilan utk collect thesis
19 julai- jumpa doc yasir dan doc saleha

kalau ikut doc yasir, dah boleh submit je, tp dc saleha suruh betulkan lagi

20 julai- buat lasik
seminggu cuti sbb x brp ada mood dan kononya berehat sepenuhnya lepas surgery
(22-27 julai)

pastu buat correction dalam seminggu- jumpa dr saleha.
masih ada perlu ditambah- kena panjangkan lagi ayat.. alhamdulillah dr xde komen tentang
isi, cuma dr komen dr segi penyampaian je.. nak kasi tesis tu nampak lebih berkualiti

13 august - jumpa doc lagi sekali dan dr nampaknya dah puas hati. kena tambah sikit2 je.. nnt tunjukkan hardbound kt dia utk sign

14- ada iv usas

15-pergi buat proofreading dan formatting. kebetulan ada jumpa sorg kakak ni. baik sgt dia ajar satu persatu nak edit. kalau x mmg igt nak hantar lab je utk formatting. formatting dah la mahal